profile journal exits cmmts

Every morning you wake with beliefs
Mostly bias statements but yours,
none the less.
I wake up with pure freedom
I wake up with more conundrums but,
I will be myself and no one elses
Possestion.
Ill say good morning to all colors.
The Rainbow.
Good by over run people filled with lies,
Im Free.

This Was Then:I know I haven't been on in forever and I'm honestly not that sorry. I was having some troubles being a normal teenager and was then fixing my over-the-top-more-then-just-teen-problems. Now it's Now: I'm still in love with John Rickel, he will forever more be my one and only love. I love painting, sing to stupid silly songs and i love to swing arms with my lovely, John. I Have new ideas, new oppinions, and new ways to deal with life so be ready to deal.

Being in a relationship isn't about anything but becoming whole. It's about not even realizing what your silently searching for until suddenly he's there and your whole, Your to the point of happiness that no one else can understand. For me it is so hard to be just one. One, me, myself, and I. Because no matter what I can't get past the stupid mistakes and misjudgements i have made or that have been made on me. But finding my other half made me think differently, as if it happened for a reason.
When I became his other half I expected him to always be mine but at times it seems as if he'll never really know just what's going on for me. Just whats happening inside my head. I wish he would listen to me drop hints of my heart break. I wish he'd notice that everytime i see my family it reminds me that it will never be mine, it will always be just two. She'll never be here for me. Never understand.
I wish you would understand just how far down her words go, How far I break with each silent hurt.

Janies Music. Brys. Gabbys Music. Tjs. . . .

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