profile journal exits cmmts

Every morning you wake with beliefs
Mostly bias statements but yours,
none the less.
I wake up with pure freedom
I wake up with more conundrums but,
I will be myself and no one elses
Possestion.
Ill say good morning to all colors.
The Rainbow.
Good by over run people filled with lies,
Im Free.

This Was Then:I know I haven't been on in forever and I'm honestly not that sorry. I was having some troubles being a normal teenager and was then fixing my over-the-top-more-then-just-teen-problems. Now it's Now: I'm still in love with John Rickel, he will forever more be my one and only love. I love painting, sing to stupid silly songs and i love to swing arms with my lovely, John. I Have new ideas, new oppinions, and new ways to deal with life so be ready to deal.

I thought you would be Proud of me, of what I've stepped up and Become.
I thought you would be Happy for me, But now when I look in your eye's I see all hope is Lost.
Possibly Missed. Exceptionally Dead. Potentially Lost. Maybe Gone. Just somes.
What I got from you was Maybe.Possibly.Potentially. Exceptionally.Did you think of the Cost?

The Toll that it took, Did you take Me into Consideration?
I just wanted a simple I Love You, I cried in a Anticipation
Of The Words that might be said, or this Heart of mine that might be Undone.
Even before you said Hello, I already knew the Goodbye had Begun.

Some loose their Heart, Some loose their Mind.
Yet I have lost Me. Myself. My Kind.
Did I come back from Neverland?
The Answer is yes, But I never came back Whole.

-At a Loss.


I Write poems. I don't even know where this talent came from. My Mother? I can't ask her now can I... When I talk to her I can tell I'm not at the top of her list. I put my brothers and sisters before anything and I'm raising my grades. I got Straight A's for Her, I Didn't argue, I didn't even fight for the right to be Me. I was a doll being dragged in the dirt.
I Thought when I got away it would all End. Maybe this whole, this growing depth that seems to entangle me would go away.
It didn't and now I'm stuck here with no distractions and only my mind.
I'm forced to think about that questions that eats at my heart.
What did I do wrong, So wrong that would make her leave me?Abandon me?
What's wrong with Me?

Janies Music. Brys. Gabbys Music. Tjs. . . .

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