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Every morning you wake with beliefs
Mostly bias statements but yours,
none the less.
I wake up with pure freedom
I wake up with more conundrums but,
I will be myself and no one elses
Possestion.
Ill say good morning to all colors.
The Rainbow.
Good by over run people filled with lies,
Im Free.
The Real
This Was Then:I know I haven't been on in forever and I'm honestly not that sorry. I was having some troubles being a normal teenager
and was then fixing my over-the-top-more-then-just-teen-problems. Now it's Now: I'm still in love with John Rickel, he will forever
more be my one and only love. I love painting, sing to stupid silly songs and i love to swing arms with my lovely, John.
I Have new ideas, new oppinions, and new ways to deal with life so be ready to deal.
Friday, November 7, 2008, 3:11 PM
I have a Story
I have a Story.There is no make believe or even happyily ever afters, So far I am stuck in a never ending thought. A never ending Attempt really.
My story begins with a bad ending, But I am going to start here and now, present and I guess you could say future. I am Toni Bish, the girl that is suppose to know all the answer for certain people, get good grades to make my parents happy, give advice to save a life, and even do chores. Right now I must seem like a normal teenager but I have a story that will blow you away.I got up yesterday morning thinking how dreary and boring it was going to be unable to call John, my long term boyfriend, because he had work training and also school. I have finally got that teenage thing where you hate school even if its freakin' eat candy and dance in the hallways day. Hate It. It is a place where people start rumors, ruin lives and teachers try to cram as much information as possible into your mind, They even refer to you as a 'Sponge' or they just say 'ABSORB THE LEARNING.' Yes thank you Ms.Lewandowski but I'm not a tampon... Moving on my school also has those people who think it is COMPLETELY cool to smoke during school and get caught in the act. How freaking stupid are you?Basically I am fed up of 95% of school the other 5% is my girl friends(Mostly Bry and Hannah) and guy friends(Mostly Jamie) and my boyfriend John. I was depressed that day because I particually had a bad episode the night before involving tears and lots of peanut butter.well that all for now.