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Every morning you wake with beliefs
Mostly bias statements but yours,
none the less.
I wake up with pure freedom
I wake up with more conundrums but,
I will be myself and no one elses
Possestion.
Ill say good morning to all colors.
The Rainbow.
Good by over run people filled with lies,
Im Free.
The Real
This Was Then:I know I haven't been on in forever and I'm honestly not that sorry. I was having some troubles being a normal teenager
and was then fixing my over-the-top-more-then-just-teen-problems. Now it's Now: I'm still in love with John Rickel, he will forever
more be my one and only love. I love painting, sing to stupid silly songs and i love to swing arms with my lovely, John.
I Have new ideas, new oppinions, and new ways to deal with life so be ready to deal.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009, 12:37 PM
Update.
I have been feeling increasingly depressed for awhile now ever since, well i dont know really. stress? I really don't know how to handle it some times and hiding it has just become easier for me. "what's wrong with you?" my reply would be tired. "Why are your eyes red? were you crying?" my reply would be no i just put my contacts in or maybe no i was sneezing. I have decided that maybe i need to speak to someone to help uncover this wave of exhaystion, anxiety, and saddness that overwhelms me every morning but my family has been struggling with money and I would feel like I was taking something away from the kids. Food that they could've had, toy that they asked for, new socks even.
I noticed john loves me though, i had been worried about that lately, him waking up one morning and realizing how horrible and ugly i am. But today when he noticed I hadn't been eating he was so worried and caring I don't remember where that doubt came from. I love him which is obvious to all who are around us, i've been told it is as if you can feel our connection.
Riley heisey is a boy at school who sent me nude pictures because he is a man whore that gets pleasure out of cheating on his girlfriend. He is a coward and a liar and to all who believe the venom that pourS out of his filthy mouth, I pity you and your incapableness to realize what a fowl person he is.
But for the record, SMALLEST PENIS I HAVE EVER SEEN with the HUGEST 70'S porno bush oF a garden growing on his balls. seriously MOW THE LAWN!!!!!